2017 thus far ;)

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the daily life

Welllllll lookie lookie who’s behind YET again. AHHHH this year. I feel like it’s gunna be a good year but so far, man, it’s just been hard. So much sickness and confusion and I just don’t know what I’m doing. But! lots of good has happened so little memory blog, here we go.
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Let’s just take a moment to appreciate this beautiful New Years dinner my love made for me. Yes, I’m that far behind.
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Also, you guys! Luke and I were on the cover of a real magazine! I’m basically a supermodel now! AND they published something I wrote on the inside. That definitely makes me a published author. I’m basically your average famous person.
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This is the human I am raising. Isn’t she the best? I just love every inch of her biting self.
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Luke just lights up around, you guessed it… Papi. Everyone loves Papi.
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On New Years Day we all headed up to the field to shoot off rockets. I taught Abbie how to blow grass horns. She was very impressed. I was very proud.
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Dad finally shot the rocket I got him when I was like 12. Abbie asks to watch the video every day.
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I made some pretty perfect bread. I’m not sure how else to work that proud moment in there so here it is.
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Abbie’s been coming up with some pretty awesome winter ensembles. Also, she is in desperate need of wearing socks with shoes now. My goodness all of a sudden… toddler feet ;)
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These are my parenting skills in action. Luke had just learned to sit up like the day before. Naturally I put him on the brick step to practice. What’s the saying about holding the crown above their head and encouraging them to grow into it? Luckily, he’s been growing very well ;) Also, you try keeping a jacket on that girl.
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Apparently my children don’t wear clothes.
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This guy got his first haircut! This is not it.
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He’s been taking a couple stroller rides.
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Don’t pity him… he actually seems to like them ;)
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Greg took me up to Sausalito to celebrate FOUR YEARS!!! Yippee! It was so much fun to be back to that magical little place where we spent the first part of our lives together… and to walk around and eat at all our favorite spots and be so happy… and yet be so happy we don’t live there. I just love where we are right now. I love our little town and I love being closer to my family and I just love our little life right now. That was a good feeling to be back to a place we loved and yet so happy where we are at now. Am I repeating myself? ;)
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How cute is that man with his binoculars :)
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Obviously there was food because I was starting Whole30 when we got back and there were many things that would be missed :)

Ya, I’m still on it and my mouth is literally watering right now. Cravings shmavings.
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Coming home to these two. They are just the best. But then…
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Sickness hit. With a vengeance. Luke had croup. And didn’t sleep more than 20 min day or night for a week. Then Abbie got something like the flu. Then Greg. Then every single person I knew. Except me. And here is where I pin myself with a glowing award of excellence. Because I was on a no fun diet which saved me from all sorts of sickness :) Yay me *she said to herself, alone in a corner.*
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I have found these two handle sickness very differently. And together, my gosh it’s hard. Abbie is a snuggler. Hold me hold me all the time which you know, yes please! Except Luke is a thrasher. Bounce me shake me move me constantly DON’T STOP EVER. So holding both, bouncing one and trying to be still for the other is enough to make me want to quit life. There was much crying. There was no sleeping. There were lots of deep breaths and pep talks to just keep going because this momma was tiiiiired. But we made it! That’s two major sick weeks+ in two months folks. Did we fill our quota this year? I sure hope so.
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Then the smiles came out and I saw the faint flickering light at the end of the tunnel.

OK Whole30. My parents did it a couple months ago and I thought WHYYYYY. Why would you give up dairy, gluten, legumes, WINE, sweets and all fun in life? And then I got diagnosed with hyperthyroidism early this year and found myself on that very elimination diet. I never thought I could do such a thing what with my excessive love of food and extreme lack of self control, but four days left and I DID IT! I made it through a superbowl party, Greg’s birthday (which my mom so sweetly threw a brunch for him so I wouldn’t be tempted) — I did bring him a plate of perfectly powdered donuts which was SO hard to not partake in but anyways, VALENTINE’S DAY was definitely the hardest of all as all I wanted to do was shovel chocolate, and a couple nights out where I really wanted to cry when I had to order something without cream or butter or any sort of exciting-ness. But next week I should get my tests back and see if it impacted anything and then we’ll go from there. And I will be having a sweet date with my friends wine and chocolate. Greg can come too. I must say, if anything, I’ve been having trouble sleeping lately and this last month I didn’t have trouble one time! Also, no sickness when everyone around me was dropping like flies. I definitely do feel better overall and will definitely be altering my diet either way after this so I think it’s been a really good thing to do. I STARTED COOKING AGAIN and experimenting and while at home, I really have been having the best time! I love all my meals and have really really enjoyed it! At home. ;) Anyways all that to say, Valentine’s Day!
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There were lots of heart shaped fruits in the place of all the sweets I would rather have been having. And there were pink and red m&ms to tell my family I loved them and to test just how committed I am to this thing called health ;) (I LOVE red and pink sweets of any kind. Something in my brain says eat me now) I did it though. And they are waiting for me come Wednesday!
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These two. I just can’t get enough of them. But that week? The tail end of being sick forever week? I had had enough of them. Particularly the girl in pink. She has started testing me at every opportunity she can find.
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These situations were common. My loving, sweet, neat, girl became verrrry very busy and started exploring pushing, hitting, shoving, biting. Mostly all aimed at brother. He tumbled down brick stairs, was dragged *sleeping* out of his swing, had his finger bit so hard it bled. And she bites hard. I know. She bit me this morning and I still have a mark. My goodness I just sat down all shaken up thinking WHAT IS HAPPENING!? But this week she’s back to being as sweet as can be! I guess minus the bite this morning… but that really seemed more exploratory. Oh no… am I an enabler!? Anyways, she’s been helping me so much and being so sweet with brother. Ohhh children. They keep me on my toes ;) There were massive meltdowns and tantrums and so many ohmygoshisthismylifenow moments. And then smiles. This one is workin the system.
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But thanks to my dear husband reminding me, she really is the sweetest deep down in there and we are just having one massive test of where the boundaries are. And DANGGIT I’m up to the challenge little miss! Also, I love you. No matter what.
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Bentley got skunked. I’m actually shocked this is the first time it’s happened.
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I cooked a turkey cause that seemed like a good idea. But it was gross and we found the *plastic* bag of giblets cooked inside even though I looked for them several times like a good cooker person. Sigh, dad I need your turkey skills.
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Somewhere in there, my kids took a really long nap which made me think “no, don’t tackle your ever growing list of projects, cut your hair off instead.” And that is how my brain works these days :)
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And that’s all I have for now I think! Hope you all have the best week! Yay for sunshine! You know I love the rain but YAY for SUNSHINE!

My little boy is half a year old!

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12 months of Luke / Luke Blane

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HOW HOW HOWWWW!?! ohmygoodness I love this little man. I think this is the first month where I’ve actually gotten to fully enjoy him (sad I know) cause I’ve given myself permission to finally slow down. And for the first time since he’s been born, I feel like I’m not struggling to stay afloat and constantly feeling overwhelmed. So thank goodness for health issues that force you to do that ;) He’s such a little sweetheart and brings me so very much joy. This month he:

Obviously learned to sit up! Considering how he had no interest in the task whatsoever at the beginning of the month (literally had to force fold him in two to get him into such a position), it’s shocking how good he’s become. But sometimes he falls over and boy does he NOT like to fall over… but who does?

Greg likes to say he “enjoys things quietly.” hehe we have found he doesn’t laugh. You can tell he is laughing on the inside by his smiley eyes and wide open mouth/big smile. He does however take some quick inhales which we are counting as laughing. Sometimes one short happy squeal will be let out. These are all very good things. That boy. He’s the cutest non laughing happy man I’ve ever met.

He has the strongest grip in the world! And loves your hair. And will not let go of your hair. Or skin. Or whatever he has set his sights on to clasp firmly.

You guys. There have been days of clean outfits. As in no spit up. As in, I never thought I’d live to see the day. But he still spits up… but there are days when there is none… and all the people said HALLELUJAH!

There were some days in there where I was radioactive… and he may have needed one (just one!) more bottle before I could start breastfeeding again. OK PAUSE. ^^That^^ is such a miracle. I thought for sure we would have enough for like half a day and I was so stressed because he hasn’t been taking formula when I leave him but *randomly* Greg brought home an automatic breast pump cause he just felt like I needed it for some reason whaddagoodhusband (why I didn’t want to buy one till someone literally brought one home to me and said here use this, I DON’T KNOW! if you are pregnant and planning on breastfeeding BUY THE PUMP! enough about that…) so I started to pump every day leading up to my radioactive-ness and TADA! He only needed one more bottle! So thank you for praying, those of you who I may have mentioned my worries to :) ANYWAYS all of that to say… he may have had a banana… as in first solids… and he may have liked it even though his face said otherwise. And this is when the shit gets real. Literally.

He slept through the night – as in from 9pm to 8am – for the first (and only) time this month. I KNEW IT! I KNEW HE COULD DO IT! And this mom has renewed hope. And MY that night was lovely. I was in the cry room at church a couple weeks ago and one new mom bless her soul was going on and on about how her three month old has no problem sleeping for 11/12 hours… she now has facial deformities. Just kidding. But seriously, you watch your mouth woman. I haven’t slept in six months and cannot be held responsible for my flailing fists of envy.

Oh also, remember how I had to put him to bed before? No? Oh, well, I had to run around my house for a full 10 minutes as vigorously as possible until his eyes started to close. I do not like running even when I’m fully rested. SO I must say, this month has been a rocking dream. His bassinet is on a rocker which Abbie used all of once but HIM? He loves it and goes down so easily these days in it (with vigorous rocking but still… rocking… running… I’ll take seated rocking any day) AND SOME DAYS I’ve just put him in his crib and he goes to sleep. I heard parents talk of such things. I never thought it was possible so MIRACLES ALL AROUND!

Oh my… this might be my favorite thing… you know, before they start crawling and they get up on all fours and start to rock. OH IT’S JUST THE CUTEST!

He’s super content! His tummy issues seem to be gone THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU and he’s just the most mellow baby! He will just sit there, lookin around for the longest time. Oh but now he likes activities. Put something in front of him and he’s a happy camper exploring such fine, mother-approved wooden objects. ;) HEY I can only get away with sweet boring wooden toys for so long so let me have it!

His eyes look like they are starting to change! I have no idea which way they’ll go but they are definitely grey now – maybe a little brown like daddy’s? But still lighter so maybe they’ll go hazel like momma’s? Either way they are some of the prettiest eyes I’ve ever seen with the longest lashes :):)

Little Luke, I’m so glad you are my boy. You are simply the best gift and your daddy and I love you SO much! Happy six months!

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img_6224Yesterday, it rained and rained. Our sweet kitty, Lyla, always stays near the house on rainy days but yesterday she was nowhere to be found. My heart is so sad because just the night before I heard a horrible cat cry that woke me up out of a dead sleep and I jumped up to see if I could see anything but Greg reassured me that it was probably just a cat fight and she was fine since he had literally, minutes before, put her in the bathroom… but, earlier that day I saw a coyote trot right down our side yard and down our neighbors front path… All that to say, I have a horrible sinking feeling that she is gone :( I don’t even really like cats and my last memory of her was kicking her away cause she was attacking my feet like she did when I was trying to fall asleep, but she really was the best kitty and I already miss her so much. Stupid death. These animals… they really become part of the family dangit. Dearest Lyla, I hope you are prancing around happily in kitty heaven… maybe with Lucy… although I’ve told myself that she was adopted into a wonderful loving home…. oh animals. DANG YOU. Most of all, she fulfilled all my kitty dreams by becoming best friends with Bentley. I always dreamed of having a cat/dog best friend situation and it actually happened! Maybe I’m projecting but he seemed awfully sad yesterday and today. Not to mention, whenever Abbie sees a cat she happily shouts YAYA! which is how she said Lyla… and I wonder if her little self will realize that she’s not around anymore… or when she’ll stop calling all cats Lyla. Oh bother.

Dear Lyla, thank you for making my baby girl so happy and for befriending my depressed puppy. It made my heart so happy to see the two of you together. Thank you for always cuddling my baby boy when I would nurse him and for showing me what relaxing really looks like. Thank you for helping me like cats again. And don’t let Greg fool you… he always loved you from the very beginning. If you are still out there, please come back ….we miss you so much! Love, your family

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Last picture together :( you never know when it’ll be the last time you see your best friend.

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Abigail Elizabeth / family days

My baby girl turned TWO last week! We celebrated with our first ever entire family sick day/week! So. Much. Snot. We also had a small family party cause how can you not celebrate such a precious little life :) I think I looked like death walking up and down the aisles of Toys R Us the day before, trying to find something that my baby girl would like to open on her special day. I was drawn to the cute wooden cleaning set but what kind of a lame mom would I be if I bought cleaning supplies for a birthday gift… I asked Greg if a Barbie that comes with a dog that poops would do the trick and he said how about a wagon, so we got her a pre-tricycle instead. two-4She was thrilled. But come on, judging from the giant line of snot coming out of her nostrils, I think it’s safe to say she just wasn’t feeling well… Her favorite part about this particular present is obviously the trunk where she can hide moms money. I do enjoy seeing what sorts of treasures she’s stashed away in there :)two-3She really liked the $3 whale toy that flaps its tale though, so that was a hit.two-6Greg made his delicious waffles that I am still dreaming about. I do wish every day was waffle day.two-5She was very confused as to why there was a candle on hers. two-7Eventually she perked up and everyone was oh so happy. two-8Even Luke :)two-10This girl. She’s a special one, she is. She’s fiery and dramatic and oh so goofy but has the sweetest, most tender heart and I just adore every bit of her. I wish I could write every bit of adorable down but I’m just trying to soak it all up, best I can, because HOLY COW SHE’S ALREADY TWO!!!

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She’s simply the best :)two-23I made her a sad little cake. Greg says it looks like it was part of a budget party or something thoughtful like that, but crafty-gone-bad-cake-topper aside, I was so glad my dad noticed the whale was puffy. Because I took the time to put the puff in danggit. two-24Dory, the whale (as she is known in this house), was there too. My party decorations this go around are really somethin else ;) but the best thing about kids? She loved them :) and that made me oh so happy :)

Tell me that isn’t the cutest little brother you’ve ever seen :):):)

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And then we took some pretty spectacular family photos. Check out her little dancing arms. I’m telling you, so much good to take in :):)

That weekend, once everyone was feeling better praise the Lord, we headed down to Monterey to see the WHALES! This girl LOVES whales. I don’t know where it came from but she cannot get enough of them. So to the aquarium we go! We were all so excited to see her reaction…

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Happy birthday sweetest girl! I cannot begin to tell you how happy I am that you were born. You light up our whole lives and we love you so much!

 

THE HOLIDAYS!

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AKA Operation Help Hilly Find Her Christmas Spirit. But let’s start with Thanksgiving because I’m that far behind. holidays
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I’m going to see how many more Thanksgivings I can squeeze her into this dress ;) But seriously. This stage of putting her up on the sink to make sure she likes her ensemble (because did you know toddlers have opinions ;) ) and seeing her face light up all cute and such… I just don’t want that to ever end. It’s simply the best.
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And then she and Bentley had to go all model posey and melt my mommy heart. holidays-6

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Doesn’t my mom set the most beautiful tables? I just love a beautiful table :):)
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Taywhad and her BOYFRIEND. WHAAAATTTT!?!
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Luke approves.
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I could stare at pictures of her being tossed all day long. Her happy face makes my whole world.
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Oh lookie lookie a family picture. I had every intention of actually sending out Christmas cards this year but that certainly didn’t happen. So here’s your family picture in holiday-ish clothes ;) I’ll try again next year…
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I just can’t get over the cuteness. I’m obviously her overly obsessed mother.
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These two got to sit at the kid’s kids table and they were rather adorable. I looked behind me and they both had their eyes shut, saying their prayers. Ohmygoodness. Abbie is very into praying right now. And she actually closes her eyes and folds her hands which I haven’t really seen in many kids her age, if any? But as soon as you say “amen” she will almost always say, “Papi?” and we pray for Papi, and then she goes down her list of people she knows usually in the order of Papi, Lyla, Doggum (Bentley), Beebee (baby), Dadda, Momma, Papi, Lyla… – and then she repeats them several times until she is satisfied. It’s mighty adorable and I hope that never ends either. UGH stop growing up!

Ah I just love thanksgiving :) And then once the plates were cleared, IT WAS CHRISTMASTIME! and I do love Christmas… but this year… we’ll just go ahead and blame my malfunctioning thyroid but man, I struggled with the Christmas spirit every day. We excitedly went and got our tree the very next day and got everything put up and it just didn’t feel right. Maybe since we went to Hawaii in the middle of November, I felt like Fall went so darn fast… I dunno. I just couldn’t get in the mood. BUT tree shopping was real fun :) We got hot beverages and had the best morning.holidays-25

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It was so cute to see Abbie see the tree for the first time… I brought her down from her nap and she gasped and said “WOAH” I just can’t get enough of that girl.
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Or of this boy :):)
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He is starting to laugh so hard around sister. I just love watching them play together. But frankly, having an older sister looks a whole lot like..
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Despite the incessant need to be on top of him at all times, she is so good with him. Really tender and sweet and makes my momma heart so proud. I love those two.
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There were lots of nights under the tree
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And lots of sleepy, snuggly days
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For everyone ;)
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Abbie got a big girl bed! and slept in it for an entire nap without getting out which I didn’t even think was possible so we went and celebrated. Mom went overboard in the sugar department. Oh goodness that poor child had so much sugar this season. I think we will be doing a major cleanse in the new year :-P
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We stopped by the store on the way home and when we were in the checkout line, Abbie got so excited and kept pointing and shouting DADDY! DADDY! And I looked over and saw this. holidays-38
I told her she just made her daddy’s day ;) That still makes me giggle :)
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I got to go to the Christmas tea with my sister which was awfully festive :)

And then. And then… I decided this was the year I was going to make Greg’s present. Because I have so much extra time on my hands these days. And that’s where things went downhill ;) holidays-40
They said it would take an hour. They clearly don’t have a screaming baby and a very busy little girl. They also have the right equipment. They also know what they are doing. I did not. But I actually had a really fun time except that I didn’t know Greg took the week before Christmas off so that cut my time short and the one week I did have to work on it, it was raining and if it wasn’t raining it was freezing and windy and let’s just say we ended up with a cornhole board with lots of dirt stuck in the paint and polyurethane that would not dry after days and days of waiting, and a very bruised swollen hand and a back that went into incredibly painful spasms, and a couch that has red wine vinegar poured all over it (thank you Abbie) and a bunch of broken ornaments (thank you Abbie) because it’s amazing what one small child can do in just 5 minutes unsupervised. Haha. All that to say, he got his Christmas present early because things just didn’t work out how I saw them in my mind and it was stressing me out DOGGON POLYURETHANE! But I was mighty proud of myself for using a jigsaw and a circular saw all by my lonesome and I learned a lot in the process! I kinda wanna make another one when I’m not rushed and stressed :)
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There were lots of nights of sipping little cups of eggnog with my girl and watching Christmas movies. Those were my favorite. holidays-52
Not to mention not being pregnant for the first time in two years at this time of the year!
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This girl and her nutmeg. So fancy.
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These two in the morning watching dad play games on his phone hehe
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Peaceful nights just sitting and looking at all the candles lit and the stockings hung and those two giggling.
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And naps
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And kisses
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Those little faces!
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And playing with dollies… seriously the playing by herself is just so cute to watch :):)
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And cleaning up brother. She is SO good about it hehe she always says UH OH! And immediately grabs whatever is nearest to wipe him up :)
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This boy. I just love him so.
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I also decided it would be cute since I got my mom a cookie platter thingy for Christmas, to bake cookies and have Abbie decorate them. This also was not a good idea. I was so happy I had just taken the time to have my ring cleaned the day before…
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But then came Christmas and it was lovely.
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I told her she looked so cute, she should go show daddy how pretty she looked. So she ran out to him and stood there waiting for him to notice her (he was wrapping presents). When he didn’t look up she softly said “Dad” and when he still didn’t look up she said loudly “DAD” and curtseyed so cutely. I have no idea where she learned that from but my heart basically exploded.
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Luke looked cute too but I forgot to take a picture before grumpy hour set in ;) He had a bowtie and one shoe because that made sense in my frazzled Christmas mind. Never did find the other one :/
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We watched The Snowman with Abbie which I was sort of curious how she would react because when I saw it in kindergarten, I cried and cried (the snowman melts at the end) but I figured she was so little, it wouldn’t really bother her but sure enough red little nose and watery eyes were there and I felt like the best mother. MERRY CHRISTMAS, goodnight. So sorry baby girl :[
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And Abbie got a jump jump! that specifically reads “not recommended for children under six” but boy I’ve never heard her laugh so hard for so long. I don’t know who’s more excited about it – her or me. I’ve been having the best time on it! Maaaaybe now I’ll get in shape. she said again.
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Turns out, Christmas wasn’t so bad after all :) Merry Christmas everyone and a happy New Year! Hope you all have a great one!

5 Months!

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12 months of Luke / Luke Blane

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This badly lit photo is brought to you by a very distracted mom who decided she’s just about had it with the dead tree in her house and decided this was the day to say sayonara to Christmas, thus welcoming a pine needle explosion in each and every corner of her house which led to a day of endless sweeping, therefore completely forgotting to take her baby boy’s five month picture until the sun began to set and the light was no more! BUT HEY! I still got it on the same day so points for me ;) THIS BOY THIS BOY THIS BOY! He’s just the sweetest and I love him so. He has two modes. Happy and sad. There is no in between. He’s just the happiest lil guy when he’s happy and so very heart crushingly sad when he is sad. Do you like my explanation of things? This is my brain now.

Possibly my favorite thing about my boy, Luke, that started this month is the chest thumping. When Abbie was this age, she would keep her hands up by her ears and flap them. Luke doesn’t flap. He beats his chest like a man and it is my favorite.

He’s a screecher. This goes for both happy and sad modes. He is still rocking the HIGHEST, loudest screech of a cry I’ve ever heard, and this month he realized he can also use this high loud screech for when he’s perfectly fine and just wants to express the feelings within. Preferably in restaurants.

He twirls the hair on the very top of his head and it’s mighty adorable. He will also grab yours if you get too close. Abbie has been SO good about it. I fully expect her to scream but she holds so still and waits for me to come help her get that kung foo grip undid. I just love these sweet babies of mine :)

I can’t get him to full on laugh but he has the cutest attempts that warm my whole soul. They kinda sound like big happy breaths and darn it, it’s cute.

If you put him down, he will roll over immediately. It’s like he doesn’t want you to forget he has mastered such skills. Oh and look how high I can push myself up, says he. So many skills, little mister. So many skills.

He lights up when sister talks to him. She’s so SO sweet with him and always gets down at his level and says HAI BAIY-BEI! And he gives her his best open mouth smiles and I just never get tired of watching those two interact. When there is no hitting. Or screaming. Or poking. Etc.

The spit up. I think it’s getting better! I know this because if I go out, I now only bring one burp cloth instead of four. And I still return with it completely soaked but you know – one. Not four. This is big, guys.

Just look at that boy. JUST LOOKIT!
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I can’t even begin to be mad at him for howling in my ear or waking me up every. single. hour. every night. Actually this week we are back to about two times a night so PRAISE JESUS! This momma needs more sleep. Little Luke you

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LUKE I LOVE YOU. I love love love being your momma and am so thankful the Lord chose you for us. Happy five months, lil man! STOP GROWING!

A cozy day for a wedding

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family days

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MY GRANDMA IS A FUDGE! I’m so very behind… I still have pictures from Thanksgiving to sort through but alas, my grandma got married yesterday so I wanted to get these up before they hit their one year anniversary ;) It was such a magically rainy day and such a sweet, simple ceremony. I’m very happy that my Grammy has found another great love to do life with and although I miss my Granddad very much, it’s so good to see her so happy. So congratulations Mr. and Mrs. Fudge! We are so happy for you two and wish you all the best!
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4 months

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12 months of Luke / Luke Blane

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Oh goodness this boy. I was thinking back to Abbie at this age and remembered what a little chatterbox she was. He is not. He is all boy and would rather just sit in silence, observing, mayyybe every once in a while throw out the most dashing of smiles, you know, just to make you melt over and over again throughout the day. He is the dearest and I love him so. Oh little Luke, you light up my whole life! There have been SO many smiles this month and shall we even say, attempts at laughing!? It’s the best and seriously makes me want to explode from cuteness overload. You love when I sing to you, bless your soul. I think you knew mommy needed a little morale booster since your sister throws screaming/sobbing fits anytime I attempt any sort of tune. You love attention, love to kick kick kick and run run run, and diaper changes still appear to be the happiest part of your day. You’ve started the nursing smiles which basically never get old and oh, you know, make me want to have 12 more children immediately. You’ve found your feet and your hands and danggit it’s cute. You’re starting to grab for things, have rolled over a total of zero times this month, and still have the highest scream I’ve ever heard. It. is. the. best. Is it bad that I don’t pick you up right away, just cause I love to hear it? Especially because it comes with the saddest little lip and shaking hands. Man, I sound like a horrible mother. You are starting to smile at your sister and my goodness does she love you. I can’t keep her away from you! Whenever I get her up from her nap, the first thing she asks is, “baby!?” and then we go downstairs to see you and she strokes your face ever so gently and says, “hi baby” and boy does that just fill up your mommas heart with happiness. She then proceeds to jump from the pillows above you, onto you and you, my dear boy, just blink and smile, the tolerant little man that you are. You love your hand and have it in your mouth for the majority of the day, still wake up about twice a night but fall right back asleep PRAISE THE LIVING LORD, are still going strong on the spitting up and loooooove Christmas trees, just like your momma. I put you under that thing and you are one happy man. Mr. Luke, I may not be a perfect momma but I sure am confident no one could love you or your sister more than I do. And I think that’s all that matters :) We sure love you, sweet boy! Happy four months!christmas

Aloha, aloha Hawaii!

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terrific trips

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Oh man, this vacation came at just the right time. I lost my child… in my own house… sprang up to get another crying child and completely obliterated my computer… and was basically at the point of a mental breakdown every. single. day. These babies, man, I love them but they may just kill me. To say I feel refreshed is basically the understatement of the century. You know when you try to think of something and sort of sift through various thoughts in your head? When I would do that, there were no thoughts. It was like searching for something in a dark, empty place. I can’t put sentences together, words larger than four letters are hard to come by and I use the word “thing” for almost everything. BUT Hawaii is beautiful and we had the best time. So, thank you parents for taking our babies for a week! It was the most wonderful gift :) A few hundred pictures below. You think I’m kidding.
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The first day we spent down at the lagoon which you know, was sort of awesome for your inner child. hawaii-3

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There were slides and turtles to swim with and all fun things.

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Plus I got to hang out with these awesome people all day and there was no one behind me whining. and whining. and whining.
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It was lovely.
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Except there was this sweet family beside us that had the cutest little toddler and a baby which obviously made me miss my babies a crazy amount and wish upon a star that we had brought them. Funny enough, they looked at us and said they wished they had left theirs at home. YOU JUST CAN’T WIN.
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That one time you try to finally take a picture together and SOMEONE bombs you.
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OK it was pretty nice.
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Seriously, we have skills when it comes to trying to be in the same picture. He says I’m as light as a feather. He says.
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And this is when we snuck onto the forbidden chaise reserved for the very rich, and the breeze was perfect and all was right in the world. I love that man.
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DOLPHINS!
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AND MAN-MADE WATERFALLS!
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They don’t seem to struggle with pictures like we do :/
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The next day we snuck into the Fairmont since it was right on the water and I became very, veryyyy happy.
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I mean, handsome men delivered me drinks and fanned me with palms…
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This. This is my happy place.
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Klein does handstands when he has tequila. It is very impressive.
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And that night we went to the most magical dinner right on the water. Again, all these things make me so, so happy.
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Apparently I like pictures of palm trees.

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Ok why do they look perfect..
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And we always look sort of… creepy?
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Sigh, maybe in heaven I’ll be photogenic.
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Greg ordered a martini and got laughed at.
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And there was lovely live music and crashing waves and the warmest of airs and it was all so wonderful.
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The next day we went to the other side of the island for a short lil hike which sorta blew me away.
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Complete with rooster.
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CAN YOU EVEN BELIEVE ALL THAT GREEEEEEEEN!?!
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And now prepare yourself for one thousand pictures of plants because I couldn’t stop.
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REAL WATERFALL!!!
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Let’s try this again.
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Seriously, Kleins. If you ever give picture taking lessons, the Nettles are in.
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And then there’s that time, you’re just walking along and here comes a fox and his friend, fox.
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The sunsets. THE SUNSETS!
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And then there was another lovely meal and lovely company and all that AND THEN the next day we were off to our day of excessive splurging. And it was unreal.
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YOU GUYS. The green! I just can’t take it! I can’t grow a thing in my garden no matter how hard I try so this was just so good for my soul.
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Ok, the Four Seasons. My goodness. First, you sit down on a little couch because, eww standing, and they come over to talk to you about your stay and bring you little pineapple skewers and moist towels and fresh fruit juice and put that smile on your husbands face ^^ If this was my whole experience, I would have been beyond impressed. Gimme a pineapple skewer on a pretty tray and my mind is blown.
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Then they have to go and wrap their cords in pretty fabric sleeves and now I will judge any hotel that doesn’t have sleeves for their cords. TRASH. Just kidding. But seriously. Sleeves. And flowers. :)
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And then we walked around the grounds with our mouths open.
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Seriously. We did not belong there, the children we are. And it was fairly obvious with our stupid grins and our excessive pictures BUT WHO CARES. We were two happy individuals eating one delicious breakfast looking at the most beautiful ocean.
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And then Greg went to a whole new level of happy when he saw they had cornhole.
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And a hammock.
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I just thought the colors were so stunning. First with the sand and then the rock. It was just so gorgeous I can’t even explain.
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AND THEN we got to lay on those lovely chaises and swim in that warm, warm water and order delicious drinks and danggit that was nice.
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^^Just guess who ordered the pink drink ;)
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And then, there are some things in marriage that creep your partner out an extraordinary amount ^^ this is Greg’s. Obviously I do it as often as possible :] I’m incredibly mature.
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He’s very forgiving :)
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AND THEN THEY BRING YOU COLD GRAPES ON SKEWERS. The skewers, you guys. They just made me so happy!
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Greg asked me what I would be disappointed in if it didn’t happen while we were there, and I said 1) swim in the ocean (cause our first hotel was sort of inland) and 2) drink something out of a pineapple. I finally got my pineapple :)
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And there were fluffy beds!
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And pretty views and flowers!
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And an outdoor shower! which Greg is demonstrating here..
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And then we had a lovely final dinner where Greg ordered the whole menu and acted confused as to why I was so surprised ;)
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^^I never did get a picture of those flowers in the daylight but they were just so perfect I couldn’t stop being amazed by them!
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And then there was the most delicious breakfast on our little patio with our own little toaster (again PSH mind. blown. by the toaster ;) ) and then we cried inside as we ordered our taxi to the airport.
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Hawaii, you were beautiful! Until next time!

Just your average Friday morning photo dump

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the daily life

Thank goodness for Fridays. Greg and I are off to HAWAII(!!!) on Monday and I’m beyond ready to have an adult conversation. I’ve been so very tired lately so a long long flight in which I can sleep in an upright position sounds positively dreamy. Bless my dear parents for taking on two babies. Bless you bless you BLESS YOU! Anyways, my computer has added multiple crashing sessions to its everyday routine and has insisted it’s “critically low on space” for many many weeks now… which would make you think I would feverishly start backing things up BUT I have yet to figure out a system that works for my picture hording self… so if anyone has that all figured out, lemme know!! Because I’m lost when I think about that giant task. And I really don’t want to loose all my pictures YET again. Anyways! instead I’ll put all my happy and random memories here.
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You’re welcome ;) OK let’s begin. This guy, he’s practically doubled in size… and this was a month ago… he’s come a long way from these legs/feet combo right!? Just look at those adorable little chicken legs :):):) I’ll never forget just how tiny that boy was when I first laid eyes on him.photo-dump-2
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Abbie helped me hang a gallery wall. I told you these were random.

I can’t tell you how many pictures I have like these ones. At first I thought it was so funny how she just loved to be as close as possible, and always touching… but seeing the hundreds of pictures together… their little relationship… she just loves her brother so much and it makes this momma heart so happy.
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I made her wear my rain boots. She was not a fan. I’m still laughing.
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Have you ever seen someone so excited about laundry!? It’s amazing how much longer simple tasks take with a toddler around… and how important it is to remember these days ^^^ are the best days and to slow down and play and not worry about getting every single thing done… I have to re-teach this to myself every day when I look around at my messy messy house and feel like a failure :) 
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Heheh this one cracks me up… this girl.. she’s really into buttons and remotes right now. So I set up my tripod and let her take pictures and she had the best time. And I have the best pictures. Hence the full computer. But that face. COME ON. I love that girl.

That one time she climbed up onto the forbidden table but then started to smell and stroke the flowers all adorable like. THAT GIRL.

Small, medium and large ;)  I have about one million pictures of these babies in diapers. And about 60 videos of them just kick kick kicking away in silence because it’s just the cutest thing. Those boys were born four days apart and are bound to be best friends. I’m just sure of it!

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Somewhere in there, I had a birthday and it was so so lovely. We found out this boy loves being in the sink (HELLO relaxed mornings!), I got to join my mom/aunts/grandma for a lovely wine and picnic lunch, and got to go on the most dreamy date with that handsome man below. It was the best. photo-dump-16

Our family’s selfie game is just…

October you were beautiful.

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And this is to remember that one day I wanted to treat this girl to a new toy and a hot chocolate because that just never happens and HELLO RAIN, but the sweet date I had pictured in my mind turned into one with many raised eyebrows as this lady held a flailing-need-to-nap-NOW girl in one arm and an upside down boy in the other. Luke had decided this was the day he would test how tight momma was holding him and there he went as he flung himself backwards. You can imagine, everyone was just waiting to ask me my marvelous parenting techniques. Lesson learned: NEVER leave the house without a baby carrier even if you think you’ll be going 20 feet from the car to the shop. Your daughters shoes will keep falling off which will trigger a meltdown of sorts and it will all go downhill from there ;)photo-dump-24But no regrets because that little shopping cart keeps her occupied for HOURS.

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photo-dump-36We got fed up not having a flat coffee table so we ordered a new one… and it came… and it was beautiful… but slightly green and made all my insides cringe. So naturally, I took my brand spankin new piece of furniture and sanded it down and whitewashed it :) and ohmygosh whitewashing. I came in with inspired eyes and started looking for more things to whitewash. Greg got scared. Also, that wall has remained blank for too long. Something must be done about that. I have thoughts.

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These babies are my whole world <3 I’m so very blessed.

There is nothing that makes me happier than this site. Heart full.

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