Lately…

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And by lately, I mean a few hundred pictures from the last year or so ;) And this is without taking many pictures these days! But I’m already forgetting so very many things so here’s my attempt to sort through the highlights.

We miss these wonderful people so very much… they were off to their next adventure in England (like a year ago, ha!) so obviously fish and chips and pictures of the queen were in order to send them off properly.

I remember this being an especially good night cause it was the night I :’) found :’) out :’) I :’) was :’) going :’) to :’) be :’) an :’) auntie :””’)

There was Florida, where we had the best time visiting friends and family and getting eaten by one million bugs. IT’S SO TROPICAL! I loved it! Minus the bugs.

Abbie was cracking me up with her costume Gummy Lory gave her :) It quickly became a favorite that didn’t come off!

Did you know Auntie Jen is an incredible pool player?? Teaching all her tricks to the boys :)

Wasn’t planning on it but Disneyworld was calling :) so glad it worked out cause I had the best time with all those people there.

Luke went on space mountain!!!! Still so incredibly proud of that crazy brave boy.

So very fun and SO VERY magical. Darn them.

There were lunches by the sea

And baths for all

Mostly we just had the best time relaxing and visiting some of our favorite people. We miss you so!

We got really into chess. I can’t keep up with Greg anymore so I’m reduced to playing with a five year old. It’s sorta the best :)

I threw on the ugliest outfit to run outside but moments later was joined by the sweetest little twin. It’s my favorite thing… she sneaks away and reemerges with shockingly similar clothes that never cease to make me smile. I love her to bits.

SOMEHOW we ended up here again. WHAT IS HAPPENING!?!

I’m starting to crave fancy food. Dear me.

Clearly, we fit right in with society.

But you only turn 40 once so… happy birthday, you old man. We love you!!!

There was a very foggy day… obviously, memorable ;)

When all your trees start to lean on their own :'( THOSE DANG GOPHERS! This was the year they went to town on every single one of my trees… literally EVERY ONE I’ve ever planted had their root systems STOLEN from them! but but but! I dug what was left of them up, put them all in gopher baskets and so far, this spring, they all put out a few leaves to tell me they are trying! The rollercoaster your heart goes through with such hobbies! Goodness!

There were Thanksgiving hikes with the cutest of pregnant ladies :)

AND THEN!!!! AND THEN!!!! It was Christmastime!!!!

Noah turned three! BUT HOW!?!

Obviously the Hulk was there. I love that he loves the Hulk because he is him. Sweetest boy until he’s not, and then hide everything you don’t want destroyed! One time, he went over and pulled a plant out of the ground! He’s scary. But we love him. From a distance. ;)

Don’t you just love little kid friends <3

Abbie turned SEVEN!!! She’s still six in my mind though… for some reason… can’t…. process… such… high… numbers…

I think these were from the day Noah was officially potty trained :’) I had a quick cry using up the last diaper and haven’t missed it since! GOD BLESS TOILETS and kids that know how to use them!

I just think she’s the cutest thing <3

We celebrated NINE years together!

Bentley remained in his rightful place. Whenever Greg would give me a hug when he would get home from work (back when he went to work ;) ) Belly would wiggle his way right between the both of us each and every time. So glad nothing has changed :)

How can he expect me not to act like a child when I am spoiled in such a manner?

Cause again, I just think she’s the cutest! Tutu at 2:22 on 2/22/22 :)

Remembering sunny days and baby teeth and homeschool sessions that don’t end in everyone crying :)

And then there was Valentine’s day

Noah’s face <3

Love was in the air for all! We had the brilliant idea of trying to recreate the Julia Child’s Valentines party from Julie & Julia… I cooked for nine hours straight only to have everything cook down so small you got a sold three bites. Maybe that’s how the french stay so slim? It was cold. I was hungry. Definitely woke up in the middle of the night and cried cause ugh it just took so long and was so bad! And I was so hungry! But the company was great and I’d do it again in a heartbeat :)

There’s been lots of trying to convince the kids that their backyard is great. Go play.

Yes I make them play in ties and coats. Just kidding. Abbie lives for dressing her brothers ;)

Abbie finally got her dolly. I love her so much.

There was St. Patricks Day and a party that I took zero pictures of!

There were beach days in spring and ice cream and tea parties!

There was passover!

And finally, there was Easter. I have been wanting to host Easter for NINE YEARS! Carrying around this Easter menu I ripped out of a Williams Sonoma catalog many moons ago. But we’ve always been moving or under construction or SOMETHING so I was so happy we got to finally do it – and that the weather felt like cooperating! It was so lovely!

Taywhad brought the CUTEST appetizers!

There were melting baskets!

And Gummy’s that didn’t care because newborn snuggles <3

LOOKIT SHE!!!! She is perfection.

It was my first event bouquet that I gathered entirely from my yard. It’s always been my goal. I’ve never been so proud. JUST LOOKIT IT IT’S SO PRETTY!!!! DID I MENTION I WAS PROUD even if it is a little melted from the sun :D

We attempted to take a totally normal picture.

Concluding that it can’t be done!

Well, IIIII had a marvelous time! Is there anything better than good company and good food? I can’t think of anything. Aaaand with that, I am officially caught up ;) Thanks for coming along on our boring but happy journey! We love you guys!

A sweet little shower for the sweetest of little girls to be

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Hello! It’s me! Way behind as always! Still have the majority of 2021 to sort through but we got to celebrate my wonderful sister and her soon to be arriving daughter yesterday and I just didn’t want to forget it so here you go! Let’s see if I can end every sentence with an exclamation point!

Being that her name is Eden, my oh so original thought was to have a gardeny-paradisey feeling party with loads of flowers, birds, perhaps some bunnies hopping around… would a couple of storks be too much? Buuuuut, it was the middle of winter …and I didn’t know what to do about the inevitable poop. Luckily, her middle name is Renee, meaning reborn! SO I thought WHO CARES there are no flowers in the stores right now… what is a better picture of rebirth than sticks and new life poking through! Luckily mom managed to find the most lovely flowers and I think it turned out rather pretty ifIdosaysomyself in a crazy jungley sort of way.

If that’s not the prettiest cake you ever did see. THANK YOU CINDY!!!!

Have you ever seen a more adorable pregnant lady? Also, is it too much to ask everyone that enters my house to have this sort of reaction?? ;)

Whew! We did it! And a HUGE shout out to all my aunties who have thrown so many stunning showers! You guys amaze me. And to everyone who helped and served and baked and let us borrow all the things. We have such a wonderful support system and I know you all made Taywhad feel so very loved. Thank you thank you thank you thankyouuuuu!!!!

And purely for Taylor cause she said she wanted it written down but I was really hoping not to relive this… ugh I’m serious… when mom asked me to do the devotional with her, I had such hope that good advice would just flow to me… not so. I’ve been sick in bed this last week and instead of watching shows or reading books, I just sat there. Staring straight ahead wondering what the heck to say. We have had a doozy of a couple weeks leading up to this and parenting has not… been easy. We shall say :) so, probably wasn’t the best person to offer any advice but for Taywhad and all the people in the back who couldn’t hear my squeaky laryngitis voice, here’s what I came up with ;)

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I remember reading, I think I had just had Luke… an article called walk slowly, momma… it was about how children tie the feet of their mothers. 

She talked about Jacob and how he wrestled with God and from then on, his name was changed to Israel, meaning God prevails, and he walked with a limp. 

By His glorious design, I’m convinced the hidden gift of motherhood is to get us to lean hard on Him. I want to read you a short excerpt from that article cause I love it so much. She says: 

[ Lean, Momma. Lean on Him at the hospital when confusion clamors, and it’s not going how you envisioned. Lean on Him when that baby is up all hours of the night. Lean on Him when your toddler has peed on the floor for the fifth time in one day. Lean on Him when your little one is screaming because he’s shoved a Tic-Tac up his nose. Lean on Him when you discover things like rashes or ticks or high fevers. Lean.

You might feel tied up, but you are wrapped up in the abundance of God’s Grace.

And that place of spills and kisses? It’s Holy ground.

If I could say one thing to the young momma behind me: Your feet are tied up for a reason.

Walk slowly. ]

But to be honest, parenting is hard. The hardest thing is seeing sin in your kids – when you see them lie straight to your face, or are blatantly defiant, or hurt each other repeatedly… it breaks your heart. 

But even harder is seeing sin in yourself. Sin you may not even know was there! I can’t imagine screaming at anyone before having kids! I didn’t GET mad! To see fear in your precious child’s eyes because you, the adult, were acting irrationally… it’s heartbreaking. Almost too much to handle sometimes. 

But the hope is that you’re never left there. Parenting teaches me over and over again that I am in desperate need of a Savior and that He is strong enough to save me. You get a front row seat to his redeeming grace, again and again and again. 

We were never meant to do this without Him. So lean on Him, momma, and NEVER ever underestimate the power of prayer. Ephesians 1:19 says “I also pray that you will understand the incredible greatness of God’s power for US who believe in him. This is the SAME mighty power that raised Christ from the dead” THAT is the power you have fighting for your family. The SAME power that raised Christ from the dead! Lean on Him. 

My prayer for little Eden is from the verse I put on the little seed packets. God had just given the Israelites the Ten Commandments and despite being terrified, they were eager to listen and obey. God says to them “oh that they would always have hearts like this, that they might fear me and obey all my commands!” If that is not the heart of every parent. Oh if you would always be obedient and stay on the right path! I pray that from a young age, she will fear God, be obedient to Him and remember that no matter what, God will prevail! 

I sure can’t wait to meet you, sweet little Eden!!!

Camp Happy!

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Just takin the days as they come now :) We couldn’t go up to our regular camping spot on account of it being the ever so lovely fire season so we took a trip to Gummy and Papi’s backyard instead. I was super enthusiastic about it. But really, mom named it Camp Happy and it certainly turned into such. We had the best time!

Just LOOK how happy my husband is to be setting up our tent on grass and not dirt! Honestly, it was rather wondrous! Our tent stayed clean, Greg and I didn’t fight over the appropriate level of dirty the kids are allowed to be in such situations, it was warm and beautiful and really who can complain about this outcome?

Mom made the yummiest sandwiches wrapped all cute-like in their little wax bags and strings. How can anyone stay pessimistic with such thoughtful touches :)

NOT TO MENTION BELLY!!! He didn’t have to be tied up the whole time and MY was he happy. He just loves when everyone is outside and together. And I just love when he’s happy :)

He’s a fruit dog. We rarely have any persimmons left cause he always jumps up to eat them. The other day I saw him grab a branch from our loquat tree and shake it to get those down… needless to say, he was mighty pleased to find that mom and dad had a lovely apple tree to help himself to, branches and all.

There were hikes!

And babies that kept missing their naps :)

There was even DANGER!

Dad taught Luke how to spit off bridges ;)

Abbie being Abbie ;)

Their were lovely dining experiences!

And games!

And stories around the campfire!

There was adventuring!

My little heart got its fill of otter love and pretty birds and glorious nature!

Then we forgot about nature and filled a whole trashcan with our lunch cartons.

And our kids played find the fry under the cup games all perfect-like at the table! And were so amused by the wooden seagulls!

Just try to find Noah amongst the little mens…

And there were more hikes and games to be played and foods to be had. It was all so lovely.

And then it was back home for baths and dinner with our little characters. Thanks, sweet hometown for being so lovely. And thanks mom, for committing to the camping trip and making it all so fun! We had the best best time with you guys!

School has begun!

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We are all VERY excited, clearly, to be starting school again. We have a FIRST grader!!! A KINDERGARTENER!!! And HEY we’ll call him a preschooler AKA participating in the art of distraction ;) Goodness as intimidating as it is to homeschool, I can’t adequately express what an honor it is to get to teach them. The conversations I get to be a part of just melt my heart. We have our Voice of the Martyrs calendar up to remind us to pray for the persecuted church, and ahhhh something about a little voice praying so earnestly for the pastors in Tajikistan is overwhelmingly precious. Hearing their memory verses take root in their hearts is so special …Lukie telling me he doesn’t have to be afraid because the Lord is with him :’) it’s just really really good and 100% worth all the hard. So, super excited about this year. Last year was a good warm up and I feel much more prepared for how to prioritize and get out of my own head. So, here goes nothin!

Reading has been fun to teach (and I mean that in the most sarcastic way possible) but it’s been so encouraging that over the summer she hasn’t forgotten everything she learned last year since I never did get all those practice books I was planning on getting :D ahhhh it’s just so cool to see them learn and figure things out and LUKE! I thought he would be really tough in school but he has been rising to the occasion, super eager to learn, seems to get the math concepts and phonics so well and ughhh he’s just blowing me away. I definitely sound like I’m bragging and truly, I am so proud of them, but this is just coming from a place of complete former terror and now relief ha! We’ve been having a lot of fun :)

As sad as it is to be leaving the baby stage, it is really so cool to see them grow up and become more capable – like being able to fold their own clothes! and play an instrument! and bake without getting flour absolutely everywhere! I’ll just say it again, it is such an honor to be these guys mother. They have already taught me so much more than I ever could teach them :)

Happy school year!

Our boy turned FIVE!

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Happy birthday to our boy! We had the best time celebrating him – complete with the most exciting day, for the kids, and the most exhausting day, for the adults. Started with our normal family breakfast of sweets and presents..

So glad he thought his dino party was, in his words, “awesome,” cause that theme kept changing right up to the night before… sound like anyone you know, mom? ;)

We missed you, Gummy Rory! (as pictured here in phone form) :)

Abbie wanted to buy him something all herself and chose this dear little pirate outfit (that really just looks like a strange magician) but we got home and were wrapping it and I noticed 1-3 years… he still wore it through his whole party, being the sweet brother he is :):)

And then we were off to clean up for the next party of so very many children! It was so so good to see them all playing together and so happy. I always feel bad my very social kids got such an unsocial mom haha ahhhh c’est la vie.

Oh the sugar. We were paying for it today but what else are birthdays for, right? Plus, look. Veggies.

Seriously, the cutest, all working together to excavate <3 AND THEN it was off to the Boardwalk where Lukie became the bravest of all the boys and rode the Pirate Ship for the first time. MY GOODNESS I was proud of him and his beaming little face of joy.

And then it was off to dinner with more sweets and then back home for more sweets. So basically we set them up for complete success ;)

The cakes, guys. I feel like I’m on a roll over here with the so bad they are almost good cake situations. One day I will watch a video or something but for now I’m enjoying the almost-falling-over,-had-to-prop-with-a-million-supports cake complete with sprinkle waterfall and cellophane volcano! Ha! I do amuse myself. Anything to make that boy smile. Cause it’s the best. Luke Blane, you are one of the most infuriating children I know… and one of the absolute sweetest. You ALWAYS take me by surprise with your giant heart – like how you wanted to give away all your birthday money because you wanted to give it back to the Lord :’) mygoodness… I may have not explained the “giving” concept correctly but your willingness just melts me. I know He will use your strong spirit for His good and I pray He will continue to become so very real to you on this fifth year of your life. Thank you for pushing me to be a better momma and for always forgiving me when I fail so miserably. Happy birthday, my boy. We love you more than I can say!

The most dreamy bed and bath I could possibly ask for

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Here are a few snippets from when the Lord blew our socks off once again. I’m just blown away by how good He is to help us floundering people out and how He seems to care about the silliest details in our lives. Our renovation projects seem to follow the same pattern. We always have a hard time finding a contractor that is available… then we seem to run into one that has a small slot to do our project… and then our projects take over and make their lives absolutely miserable ;) I’M SO SORRY TO EVERYONE THAT HAS EVER WORKED WITH US! Renovations are hard and expensive and mentally exhausting but oh how lovely they are when they are done. I’ve been so thankful our house was functioning when we moved in – in this case, the ants and the mold and the doors that didn’t close were not ideal but living with all that for six years makes this new space so unbelievably dreamy and I’m so thankful that somehow He continues to provide and care for us through it all. So here are some pics of our little space that has become our haven :) 

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Honestly, I can not describe the continued giddiness that accompanies waking up here… it’s really such a dream. Clearly first world problems over here, but I h a t e d our other bedroom – like even more than our nasty bathroom. Oh how I hated it. It’s kind of the reason we ended up doing this renovation in the first place… I may have refused to sleep in it altogether :] I’m not spoiled at all. But this. This is just so very lovely. It’s just crazy how everything worked out! Every. little. thing! I’m telling you, it’s just crazy how He helps us! Crazy, I say.

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So there ya go! Our little slice of cozy in our mad mad house ;)

A little trip!

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Hey, look! I took pictures! I really hate lugging around my big camera but I can’t tell you how much I miss looking at pictures of our adventures, even if I’m the only one who ever looks at them… it’s truly my only memory bank so without it I have no idea what we’ve been doing all this time. Oh wait, I know. Another longest renovation of all time situation. BUT HEY we have the most lovely new bathroom and bedroom with way less ants and no more mold! I’ll show you soon but for now, here are some pictures from the most lovely little getaway back to Laguna!

Obviously full of nudity

And lots and lots of pool time

And feasting

And the most snuggly babies

And lots and lots of pouting :)

BUT HOW CAN YOU BE MAD AT THAT FACE AND FOLDED EAR COMBO??

Abbie got her first pina colada and also turned 12, apparently.

There was time at the beach

And escaping from waves

And losing your pants because you refused to wear a bathing suit and the water did its siren call and you remembered it was wet

There was more feasting

And sunsets

And Abbie’s face :D

And lots of running

And just an overall good time of such excessive spoiling. Thank you so much to my favorite of all my husbands for always blowing my socks off with your generous spirit. You are beyond incredible in so many ways and I just love doing life with you. Until next time, pretty Laguna!

What do you think?

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Last year, something happened that seemed to flip a switch in my brain. I’m not sure precisely what it was, but what I think it might have been was, my cynical or rather, extra logical husband had a rapture dream and the very next morning the fires started – which you know, was just one of the most surreal, eerie events I’ve ever experienced. Remember the crazy dark sky in the middle of the day – it was nuts! Anyways, something about the collision of all these events last year – the pandemic, the unrest, the weird natural disasters all over the world – something about him having that dream was the exclamation point my head needed to wake up! It’s the strangest thing, but now I get SO EXCITED talking about all things end times related and how they could possibly fit into the events surrounding us. Greg’s horrified that I’ve actually turned into my mother! ;) We often discuss why bother even looking or telling others about all the signs since “no one knows the day or hour,” but my logic is, God’s heart is that no man may perish and if we do see things that are pointing to His potential soon return, why aren’t Christians sounding the alarm and being even more vocal about the need to repent and turn to Him? What is the worst thing that can happen? People wake up, look at their selfish miserable lives and realize their need for a Savior from all this? I suppose the scare is that discussing it at all will lead to false hope if nothing happens and ultimately lead more people astray but the beauty of Jesus is not only that one day He will return and set all things right, but that He is the key to the life we were meant to live now – regardless of the state of the world. A life lived for Him and for others, free from fear and from the poison of our self obsessed culture! I’ve been greedily reading my Bible lately, having this unquenchable thirst of just wanting to know everything about Him, and what I see over and over besides His undeniable goodness, is LOOK UP! LOOK UP! when you see these things happening, LOOK UP! I never saw just how much His return was mentioned all throughout the Bible. It’s amazing! Thousands of years ago, Paul was begging people to look up, to live rightly and to seek Him so why does it seem like the church has swung the opposite way? They are so afraid of naming dates so they avoid the topic altogether so much so that most of the people I talk to – including Christians! – don’t even know what could be coming! They’re so concerned with offending anyone, it seems like people don’t even know what sin is or that they need to turn from it! The fact is, no matter what happens in the days ahead, no one is guaranteed another day. All have sinned and have fallen short of the glory of God. If you haven’t accepted the gift of Christ’s substitutionary sacrifice taking your place on the cross, you will not be saved – it’s as simple as that but the acknowledgment of your need for a Savior and the acceptance of what He did for you is necessary. Being a good person is not enough. I’ve been reading The Cross of Christ by John Stott and if you’ve been around me lately, you know how much I’ve been enjoying it even though I’m only halfway through cause oi it’s a lot of theology talk – but it’s been such an excellent book in helping me understand the importance of His work on the cross – why it had to happen, why God is still a good and loving Father despite the seemingly cruel aspect of it, why it’s not enough to just be a good person etc. It’s an excellent book – I highly recommend it. Anyways, it sure does seem like things are heating up and perhaps it’s just another day in a fallen world and all will go back to normal, but my hunch is that it won’t. We shall see! Regardless, I would implore you to look into it for yourself. I am convinced there is enough evidence to indicate the Bible is the true, inspired Word of God, and if I am correct in that statement, which is something I am willing to bet my life on, it says He will return one day to judge the earth and rule it perfectly. Please, please, do your research. It is not something to take lightly. Seek and you will find! And I pray that you will be blown away by His greatness and goodness in all things and by how much He adores you and wants you to be with Him forever. Whenever he comes to get His bride, may He find her pure and without fault, eagerly anticipating His glorious return!

Also, happy birthday Israel! :)

A few from yesterday

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I know this is hardly exciting for anyone but me, but we finally got to dedicate our little guy to the Lord yesterday! I’ve been waiting for two years for this to happen and I can’t even either believe it finally did! Naturally, we acted as awkward as possible on stage, complete with half the family mysteriously missing behind Greg, me thinking it was a good idea to take the baby mid-prayer, and even a good trip ending, but HEY! the important part is remembering these kids He has entrusted us to raise, are first and foremost His, and goodness what a weight that takes off my worrying shoulders and what a confidence it gives us to go forward boldly and raise them to know Him and love His people well. So thankful for the support of our friends and family and church family – really couldn’t do any of this without you so thank you, truly, from the bottom of our hearts. We love you! A few pics from our celebratory day :)

Luke kept asking, “but where am I!?” ….

^^THERE you are, Peter! But then Abbie… ;)

^^We were all there – You just gotta piece these all together ;)

^^My personal favorite – the single dad dedication. Dear man :) but where did we goooooo

Because, flowers <3

Favorite moment in life lately was when I told my family I was making beet soup for the party cause it was Valentines day and the color was so pretty! and all I heard was *cricket* *cricket* matched with wide eyes of confusion ;) I thought it was quite tasty in a gardeney sort of way

Oh little Noah, you bring so much joy to our family. I can’t begin to express how thankful I am God gifted you to us. May He use you greatly in His kingdom to bring rest and comfort – the meaning of your name! – to those who come along your path. May you always know how fiercely you are loved by Him and may you learn, at a young age, what a joy it is to walk hand in hand with our Savior. His path is not always easy but it is so worth it. We love you so much. Happy Dedication Day!

My Story

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This week in our Bible study we are supposed to share our story with someone which, considering the masks and lockdowns and screaming children that seem to always be accompanying me, has proven quite difficult. So I thought I’d share it on here.

I’ve always struggled with telling it because I don’t feel like there is much to it – simple version: I grew up Christian, the end. But the truth is, I consider myself mightily blessed to have grasped how amazing God is from a very young age. He has always been very real and very personal to me and I am so thankful for that experience that I know saved me from a lot of potential self inflicted heartache. I have seen Him do such miraculous things in my life – from sorting out the minute details of my college madness, to throwing our entire wedding with a 25cent wedding fund, to saving my parents marriage when I was convinced all was lost, to getting us our dream house at the perfect time in an impossible market – I have seen Him show up time and time again and be a God of loving, personal details, doing what He does best – creating the most amazing things out of absolutely nothing.

I don’t have some crazy compelling conversion story, it’s true, but I have a whole notebook of ways I’ve seen Him working and providing and carrying us through impossible situations. With all my questions that arise about Christianity and faith and doubts about this or that, nothing can convince me that He isn’t real and that He isn’t good because I’ve seen things that only He can do. His presence in my life has given me the strength to look forward into the darkest circumstances and see hope. Nothing is too big for Him. What freedom that brings amidst chaos. But despite growing up Christian, I never saw Him personally working in my life till I stopped to look for it. And the Bible describes the Kingdom of Heaven as such – something you have to search for… that once you find, changes everything.

So my challenge for you is this: READ THE BIBLE. It’s been around a real long time and has stirred up a whole lot of controversy… it says a lot of crazy things that if they are true, you might wanna pay attention to. Study it, challenge it, research things that make absolutely no sense the first time around. Ask Him to reveal Himself to you when you read it, because He is the same God through the whole thing, working toward the same purpose of restoring what is broken and offering a way back to perfection, essentially, if you choose to accept it. It’s just the greatest love story ever told. So read it!! And then talk to Him – pray specifically for things and see how He answers. Sometimes He says no… and He is good. Sometimes He says wait… and He is good. And sometimes He says YES YES YES which is what we all really want ;) But trusting that He loves us so dang much and knows the best for us, allows us to see whichever answer He gives as the most precious gift, albeit difficult at times.

He is so good and has done all the hard work so that we can live the most fulfilling life free from guilt and shame and walk in the freedom that is forgiveness. If you seek Him, He promises you will find Him. Anyways, that’s my lil condensed story. If you ever have any questions about faith or the Bible or anything, Greg and I love wrestling through all the confusing stuff and would love love love to talk to you about it. I still have so many questions and I’ve been a Christian for almost 30 years! So let’s talk!

So, speaking of blessings, my friend sent me these the other day which just bring my heart so much joy. That man right there I prayed for since I was maybe 4 or 5? Those kids, I begged God for, for years and years. That house, I would sit in my car on my lunch break and do the math over and over just to reveal again and again I would never be able to own a house in California. Like I said, nothing is too big for Him. And now we are in the season of leaning hard on Him once more as we try to navigate the impossible world of wills and parenting struggles and heartache and daily tears as I feel like such a failure the majority of the time. But these are such a reminder to me that He is faithful and He is good and I am just so thankful for the mess that He turns into beauty :)