Imma just put this right here because that boy be so haaaaandsoooome! My goodness I love him. Ahhhh two is infinitely harder than one for me. People kept saying, “it’s ok to say it’s hard” when I had Abbie and ya sure there were difficult or trying times, but overall I felt good about mothering. Granted, she was a pretty easy baby, but I was pretty confident about how I wanted to raise her and felt like I was doing an okay job. And then came Luke. And my heart doubled in size and my joy factor went through the roof but all of a sudden I don’t know which way is up and I don’t know what the heck I’m doing. Things are always crashing about me (hiiiii busy Abbie), all of a sudden I worry about ev-er-y-thing and the mom guilt has hit me like a freight train. Last night I worked myself into an absolute tizzy cause he wouldn’t give me eye contact for the longest time and my very tired brain could not remember a time where he ever gave me eye contact and has he ever smiled and oh no he’s obsessed with ceiling fans and loves being upside down and was like a whole week slower to crawl than his sister and OH MY GOSH HE’S AUTISTIC! But today he’s smiling and happy and my brain is a touch more rested and my tired google diagnosis is seeming so silly. Ohhhhh motherhood. ANYWAYS this month:

He crawls! Oh so slowly and carefully with the highest little arms. He doesn’t have many opportunities to practice what with big sister wanting desperately to help him along through the form of dragging, pushing, carrying, etc but he’s so so cute when he actually gets to move about on his own. I just love the crawling phase :)

He’s becoming a very active nurser but hey! so much less biting so PRAISE JESUS

He loves to sit on his knees or with one leg forward and one behind him… this makes his feet go blue… is this normal? Here is the aforementioned worrying in action.

His favorite thing to crawl to is the edge of the carpet… to look under it… and my goodness I never knew how dirty it was under there!

This months sleep has been h o r r i b l e (hiiiiii top two teeth) but the last couple of nights seem to be turning a corner *she said with all the hope she could muster up*

Hey! he has his top two teeth! Sorta… one is just the tip so he still looks like a proper heart melting hillbilly but so happy it’s finally made it’s appearance. So. Happy.

He’s starting to just sit up in the middle of the night. Which is awfully adorable and awfully annoying to wake up to. But seriously if I was well rested and of sane mind, it would be the cutest thing to see in the dark.

He’s still so freakin mellow! For example, he may have fallen off the couch just now and not made a sound of protest. He’s just laying there lookin around… He goes along with any of his sister’s pillow-piling-on-brother-schemes with lots of giggles and glee. I wonder how long that’s going to last… Sweetest boy. He sure lights up around his sister. My heart is forever a puddle.

He is soooooo quiet. Doesn’t babble at. all. His laugh is still little gasps for breath and you really have to look at his face to see if he’s enjoying something haha it’s the funniest thing!

One thing that I can get him to big laugh for is bear hugs. He loves to be squeezed so tight :) I don’t mind catering to this request. Although, his laugh and cry sound so similar I sure hope he likes it :/ ;)

Ohhhh Luke. You are my little man. I love how you twirl your hair and are starting to reach for your momma. You are growing up way too fast but I love every second of it. I’m so glad you are ours. Happy eight months sweet boy!

Oh, OK, one more cause I think he’s just the cutest :]